Howdy

We had a fun night. I took a quick nap after work. I was so tired.

Met Tom and his friend for dinner and drinks and then went to see Paranormal Activity. I was so excited to see it but was SO disappointed. With the exception of the ending, I thought that it was really lame.

Slept at T’s house and then went home to clean out my old car and drop it off. My mechanic bought it from me. I am so psyched. R picked me up and we hung out together with the boys for the morning. Went to the coffee shop, playground, and had lunch together. It was nice.

I’ve been stuck at home all day without a car. Tom is supposed to deliver my new car soon! I took a nap and then was really productive, “winterizing” the yard. I raked, pulled things out of the garden and gave the lawn one last mow. I still feel proud of myself everytime I mow the lawn. I know it’s silly, but little things. I did have to call Tom and ask him how to put gas in it though.

Today is mine and T’s one year anniversary. Can you believe it? We’ve been doing this for a freaking year!

 

2 Weeks and Counting

I have been waking up so early lately and it really sucks.

Yesterday was insanely busy again at work. I know that I say that every single day.

I left at lunch time to go to the hospital for my presurgery bloodwork. OMG. My surgery is in 2 weeks! I can’t believe it.

After the hospital, I went to the surgeon’s office to do a final consult. He just got this amazing 3D camera that takes my photo from all angles and then does a 3D simulation of how I will look. It is incredible.

We talked a lot about recovery and all of the preparations I should make. It kind of freaked me out. I told T that I was mortified of him seeing me like that- drugged up, unshowered, swollen, bloody, etc. He said that he wasn’t worried and that I would always be his cute girl. I told him that he had to close his eyes if he had to help me pee (or worse!) and he said OK. Times like this, I miss R who has seen me do everything!

I still don’t have my car. Tom has to get the inspection done, tags etc and his mechanics are backed up. I am dying to drive it! Hopefully by today or tomorrow.

I broke up with my therapist. That love affair didn’t last very long. I liked her a lot in the beginning because she combined therapy with spiritual work, but lately it’s become more spiritual work and very little therapy and I was getting frustrated. I think I’m going to take a little break from therapy and just do a lot of writing and thinking on my own.

Oop! E’s up!

Wheels!!!

I got a new car!!!

Tom bought me one at auction today— a Toyota Highlander. It is an 05 with only 30,000 miles. I’m hoping that it will last me a long long time!!! It was so nerveracking to be on the other end of the phone listening to him bid on it. It was also nerveracking to buy it sight unseen and trust that he picked something nice.

He just drove it to my office and I ran out to see it and I LOVE IT! It is immaculate and perfect. LOVE IT! I am so excited to finally  have a new (used) car. 

Today has been another busy and stressful day. There is too much to do and no one to do it. Ugh.

Tom and I had a fabulous night last night. We cooked a cozy dinner at home and cuddled up to watch The Office with some wine. It’s getting cold and I slept well snuggled up to him. 

He’s been writing down his thoughts lately when he is up nights with insomnia. Last night he brought his journal over and let me read it. As I was reading it, I could tell that he was embarrassed. He said, “I hope you know how hard it is for me to share that with someone.” I’m glad that he trusts me with his secrets.

Yuck

Ugh. I am going to get an ulcer soon. More insane work news. Just when I think I couldn’t be more shocked, I am. I so wish I could discuss it here. AAAK!

I am out of sorts today. My friend told me this morning about a friend who was engaged to this uber rich guy. They’ve been together for 6 years. They were planning a majorly posh society wedding- custom desses, custom everything- and he tells her the week before the wedding that he is still married. WTF? What was he thinking?

I feel stressed and overwhelmed at work. 

Last night was frustrating. Tom and I were planning to look at cars  but by the time we finished up work, it was too dark. We went to dinner instead. I was annoyed and distracted. He did make me feel good when he told me that he’s been doing a lot of research about how to help me heal faster after the surgery. He ordered a bunch of holistic things that he wants me to take. I’m not so sure about taking them, but I was so touched that he did that for me. 

Went to bed feeling out of sorts and woke up feeling out of sorts.

 

Sunday was exhausting since I got up so early, but the boys and I had a nice day. 

I made a big pot of Pho in the morning. The boys love pho and so do I. It smelled so good simmereng.We hung around the house playing all morning. 

We finally went to church. E went to the nursery class, but A stayed with me. He can be distracting, but I also like that little bit of alone time with him. We cuddled and nuzzled during the service.

Went home and E and I napped while A played quietly. We all got up and went to Tar-jay. The boys were extra good so I got them each a special toy treat. They were so psyched. 

They played nicely all evening. We ate dinner and went to bed early. 

I got up way early again. Damn time change. I spent some time meditating and working on my psychic skillz. I think I’m making progress. 

I’m definitely into the Lexus or Toyota now. I talked to both R and TexasGirl who know me so well and both said that they were shocked when I wanted a CR-V. Neither thought I’d be satisfied with that car.

Happy Halloween

I had the BEST BEST BEST work day on Friday!

We had our big company luncheon and celebration. The lunch was  a lot of fun and I got to hang out with all of my friends and laugh and have a good time. After the lunch, there was a big presentation for the company. All of the bigwigs spoke and then they showed the promotional video that I made. I was mortified watching myself on a huge screen in front of the WHOLE company. I didn’t realize that it was going to be shown and my friends kept poking me and making faces everytime I said cheezy things, which is most of the video. Afterwards, though, our president came up to me and gave me a big hug and said “I love that video! You are SO ADORABLE in it” and that made me feel happy. I got a lot of compliments.

The company was allowed to go home early… but I still had my big important meeting! UGH! Oh well… it ended up being such a success!!! I could tell when the people entered the room, that they were kind of dismissing me as a “junior” person, speaking more directly to my boss and his counterpart. But… by the end of the meeting, after I had presented my thoughts, all eyes were on me and it was clearly my meeting. It went SO WELL and I was SO PLEASED with the results. I left work on Friday feeling really good!

Tom did not have such luck getting me a car on Friday. We were on the phone most of the morning while he bid on cars, but the prices kept getting too high. I think I might be glad though because I’m having second thoughts about the CR-V. I test drove another one and it felt so no frills. I like a little more luxury in my car.

I picked up the boys early on Friday and we carved our pumpkins. They had a good time getting all the seeds and goo out. We (I) cut very basic faces.

Saturday was rainy so we decided to skip soccer. R went with us to look at cars. I really need to decide what I want. I’m now interested in a Lexus R-330 or a Toyota Highlander… still useful, but a little less basic than the CR-V.  I still have to do some research.

The boys were pooped and cranky after a few places so we went home for naps.

R came back for an early dinner and for trick of treating. We had the BEST dinner- not very traditiional Halloween- but I made an assortment of dumplings, rice, bul-go-gi, and sauteed veggies. Yum. The boys ate so much. They decided at the last minute that they didn’t want to be knights (ARGH- after I bought both boys fricking knight costumes) and instead wanted to wear their old costumes. Oh vey.

We had a fun time trick-or-treating. E was really into it, ringing doorbells and chatting people up. That kid is going to be a politician. A was a little shy and nervous, but still had a good time. We stopped at Bob’s house and R and Bob met. I thought nothing of it, but R claims that it was an awkward moment.

We got home and everyone got into bed. R and I had plans to watch a movie together, but we were both beat, so he took off. I’m a little disappointed because it would have been fun to hang out.

I am up way too early this morning because we had to change our clocks back. Ugh. This is going to be a long day.

Random boobs, burgers, and boys

Work SUCKED yesterday. 

I got my results back from the mammogram. I have benign calcifications. I am still a little freaked out. I called K who talked to the breast specialist at his hospital. He said that I shouldn’t worry, but I still worry. I called Tom who was so so sweet about the whole thing. “We will get through this. I am going to do some research. We’ll figure it out.” It’s funny that just  little use of “We” leaves me swooning.

I had dinner with Psychic Girl last night who I LOVE LOVE LOVE. We ate big fat juicy fresh burgers. Yum. 

I was supposed to go to Tom’s after but I got home to let the dog out, washed my face, sat on my bed, and that was the end of going anywhere. We giggled on the phone instead. 

He is at the auction this morning. Fingers crossed that I get a car today!

I have a REALLY big meeting today with some REALLY big people. I have on a super cute outfit. New BCBG sweater- super tailored in the front but with this awesome zipper that goes up the back, slim pencil shirt, fishnets, kick ass pumps, and a perfect gold bracelet.

Blech

Work stuff is really getting me down. Obviously, I know better than to write about it here, but it sucks. I am stressed and miserable. There is a lot of politicking right now. 

Yesterday was not a good day and I have a feeling that today will not be much better.

I did have a very nice night though. Tom came over and I made him a yummy birthday dinner. We ate and talked, watched some of the Phillies game, and then went to bed. It was a good end to my day.

Rainy Day

It has been rainy and yucky here. 

I had my appointment yesterday afternoon. It was OK. I will know the results on Thursday afternoon. I’m thinking positive!

Tom came with me and it made me feel really special. I told him that he’d have to just wait for me and it wasn’t a big deal if he didn’t go, but he said that he didn’t mind waiting and that he wanted to be there. That got him a lot of points. He gave me big hugs when I came out and took me for a dessert and coffee treat. 

R was kind enough to pick up the boys again. He lingered at the house with us a little and showed a lot of concern. The boys and I had a mellow night. They have voracious appetites these days and keep eating and eating and eating all night. I can’t imagine how much food they will require when they get older!

Today is another rainy day and I walked in to be handed more doozy work news. Ugh. It certainly stays exciting around here. Always drama drama drama. 

Today is Tom’s birthday. I am going to cook him dinner tonight. 

 

Annoying things that happen when you get old.

This week has been nonstop! Yikes and Yikes.

Sunday ended on an up note. Tom came over and we spent quality time cuddled up with each other. I was still feeling kind of sad and curled up into him and had a good cry. He slept with his arms around me all night. I loved it.

I had a busy Monday. Had to go to NY again for a meeting. Unfortunately, on the ride up, I got a call from the hospital. My mammogram results showed a “questionable area” and they want me back in TODAY for another one. This made me really upset and freaked out. Luckily, my friend was on the train with me and she said that happened to her once as well and it ended up being nothing. Fingers crossed please. 

The meeting went well and I got a really good opportunity to bond with some important people. 

R picked up the boys for me since I didn’t get back till late. He brought them to the house while I was making dinner and generally busy having just walked in the door. He said something about watching a movie together after trick or treat. I was a little taken aback since I am the one who is always suggesting activities and he is often “too busy.” I feel like he is making an effort. He even called just now to make sure I wasn’t too upset about the mammogram today.

On a similar note, Tom insisted… INSISTED… on going with me today for the mammogram. I was very touched, but also thinking that it isn’t really necessary. I certainly don’t want him in the room with me, watching my boob get flattened like a pancake. How unsexual can you get? But, I don’t want to say no to him because I do believe in positive reinforcement, and I like his thoughtfulness and concern. I guess he can wait in the waiting room.